The naivety and innocence of a cancer diagnosis is something to be admired.
Like a snow globe before it’s shaken. The world perfect, settled, beautiful in its stillness. You have no idea what’s coming your way. I was in my own orbit of shock after my diagnosis, people looking at me with sympathy and sadness. Maybe it’s better not to know what’s in the cards, what is about to come your way.
The nurse I met on the day I was diagnosed told me: the day you are diagnosed is the hardest. You have a thousand questions and no answers. The haze you walk through in those first weeks is thick - finding a doctor, scheduling tests, figuring out a treatment plan, finding the best surgeon. Fear of death, loss, and the life you knew before. The freight train of emotions moving 100 miles an hour toward you.
